Always waiting
It’s another quiet day, and I’m trying to keep myself occupied while on the lookout for any new e-mail that comes into my work Inbox. I probably should step out of my cubicle more often than I do, but I usually assume everyone else is busy and doesn’t need the interruption. I’m also a little hesitant to interact with people I don’t know particularly well, as familiar as their faces are. Fortunately, I have earbuds and music to keep things from getting too monotonous.
I’ve been thinking about spending more time with other people offline lately. I’m bad at making plans, but I’m going to make more of an effort to arrange some one-on-one socializing as long as my brain and body can handle it. The stuff I feel like I want to “accomplish” when I get home isn’t particularly pressing, unless you count making sure Autumn gets her post-work cuddles in. It’s been nice to see people in person again, even briefly, and there’s something about that which you can’t experience online.
Actually, I’ve been thinking more about spending time offline in general, or at least to be a little more choosy about the way I use social media. I think my mind goes into a sort of “wait mode” when I use it; you know that phenomenon where you can’t get anything done in the period before something’s scheduled? It sometimes feels like that, only the thing I’m waiting for is potential engagement. I feel it even when I write a new blog post, newsletter, or e-mail; my job also involves a lot of waiting for responses to e-mails. I also tend to wait for websites I check frequently to update. It can be a quiet day and still I end up being exhausted from this.
I know I’m waiting for a lot of things to happen, but I forget that I have to be the one to get things going.
On that thought, I want to hear more from you directly, whether in a comment or through an e-mail. I usually prefer one-on-one e-mail since it’s somewhat private (as much as the internet allows) and there’s no real pressure to keep up the conversation in real time. If we don’t know each other that well, I’d love for you to tell me a bit more about yourself. If we do, I’d love to hear more about what’s been going on in your life. You can reach me at bjdwsm@gmail.com.
Today’s song is “Valentine” by Fiona Apple. This resonated hard with feelings I had a number of years ago, which I’ve already written about elsewhere.