Sitting still
Life update, December 2020 - January 2021
I just thought I’d send out another newsletter to let you know of things that have been going on with me lately, as well as find a way to get myself back into the trance of writing. Like with anything, I find getting started is the hardest part.
As expected, I didn’t get to go home for Christmas due to interprovincial travel restrictions, but I went over to friends’ places on Christmas Eve and Boxing Day, took the following week off work (much needed, BTW), and FaceTimed my family on Christmas Day. My sister’s cat Daffodil actually started purring when she saw and heard me over the phone.
I kept quiet about this until now, but my aunt Lina died two days before Christmas. She was 79 and had been ill for a while, but it was sudden and a bit of a shock. My family’s originally from Ontario, and whenever we went back for a visit after we moved away, we would usually spend some time at Aunt Lina and Uncle Clarence’s house in Grimsby. She was a loving woman, and I’m grateful for the memories I have of her.
Other than that, it’s pretty much more of the same with me; waiting around for things, completing paperwork, and trying to save money here and there. I don’t have any big plans for this year, though, since so much is dependent on other things being in place or restrictions being lifted. I have enough to keep me occupied here in Halifax, and I don’t really see myself travelling for a little while.
The idea of sitting still is kind of nice, though; my brain is usually racing with all the different things I need and want to do (or buy), and all the planning therein, so I’m trying to just relax, let myself be in the moment, and enjoy what I have right now. I suppose this extends to writing on the blog or connecting on social media; I ask myself whether I have anything I really want to say, or if I’m just publishing something for the quick dopamine rush from peoples’ likes and comments. I’ll write, but I’m not going to post unless I absolutely want to. I just want to take advantage of the luxury of a clear head for now.