I’m working on a more substantive newsletter to send, but I’m curious how everyone here is feeling these days.
I’m still dealing with the customary winter blues (the last two snowstorms didn’t help), but managing. I’ve been listening to my music collection again; there’s something about the intentional act of putting on a record that makes me feel a bit better. I also feel like I need to get back to nurturing my friendships, even if I don’t know where to start.
Back at work, struggling to find stamina to finish my days! Also anxious for nicer, warmer weather. Id like to see more of my friends but I struggle with with feeling worthy of company.. I worry I am boring AF and people who hang out with me must be counting down the seconds so they can be free of me.. Makes me hesitate to make plans!
Hi Bronwyn - thanks for checking in! I look forward to your next newsletter installment. I am grappling with being in a state of limbo. I am currently in the middle of a move. We vacated our former home and we are renting temporary accommodation in the interim. I told myself I would utilize the luxury of the extra time I'd have to do lots of writing and painting. In fact, I have done the exact opposite. I have not been writing, nor drawing. I cannot seem to cultivate routine outside of my own home. Or is that merely an excuse? In any event, I hope to snap out of this weird stasis soon. I have been reading a lot, and that is great, but I never seem to fare well if I am only passively engaged. I feel a little of the winter blues also, definitely feeling lethargy. Still three weeks before the big move and it would be nice if I could rally and write something. I feel isolated and I do want to cultivate new friendships in our new community once we get there. I was an only child and I have a bad tendency of getting a little too used to solitude. I would like to rectify that. Living in a place temporarily definitely compounds feelings of loneliness. It isn't all bad, our rental accommodation has been lovely, and I take daily walks by the seaside, and the property owners are nice folks. I am hanging in there. But I hope I'll go back to creating once we get settled in to our new digs, I hope my resistance to meaningful endeavors will abate. There are so many ways to be passively engaged with screens, with cinema, with books, with music. I love all those things! But I feel unbalanced not engaging creatively myself and, after taking such a long hiatus, I am finding it exceedingly difficult to begin again. Yikes.
Back at work, struggling to find stamina to finish my days! Also anxious for nicer, warmer weather. Id like to see more of my friends but I struggle with with feeling worthy of company.. I worry I am boring AF and people who hang out with me must be counting down the seconds so they can be free of me.. Makes me hesitate to make plans!
Hi Bronwyn - thanks for checking in! I look forward to your next newsletter installment. I am grappling with being in a state of limbo. I am currently in the middle of a move. We vacated our former home and we are renting temporary accommodation in the interim. I told myself I would utilize the luxury of the extra time I'd have to do lots of writing and painting. In fact, I have done the exact opposite. I have not been writing, nor drawing. I cannot seem to cultivate routine outside of my own home. Or is that merely an excuse? In any event, I hope to snap out of this weird stasis soon. I have been reading a lot, and that is great, but I never seem to fare well if I am only passively engaged. I feel a little of the winter blues also, definitely feeling lethargy. Still three weeks before the big move and it would be nice if I could rally and write something. I feel isolated and I do want to cultivate new friendships in our new community once we get there. I was an only child and I have a bad tendency of getting a little too used to solitude. I would like to rectify that. Living in a place temporarily definitely compounds feelings of loneliness. It isn't all bad, our rental accommodation has been lovely, and I take daily walks by the seaside, and the property owners are nice folks. I am hanging in there. But I hope I'll go back to creating once we get settled in to our new digs, I hope my resistance to meaningful endeavors will abate. There are so many ways to be passively engaged with screens, with cinema, with books, with music. I love all those things! But I feel unbalanced not engaging creatively myself and, after taking such a long hiatus, I am finding it exceedingly difficult to begin again. Yikes.